Jing’s blog

it's not because I don't miss you...
not because I haven't had time for you..

just because I've been thinking too much..
planning too much
worried sometimes, and troubled sometimes
especially when I have too much to tell you
and perhaps when I'm afraid it wouldn't be like how I hoped it would be

If I haven't contacted you for a while..
know that I'm thinking of you more than you know it..
and if you know me..
you'll know what I mean

I miss you all =)
Really.

Top Ten tips for Savoring Great Moments (By Fred Bryant)

Yeps finally!
Haven't been blogging for a while due to my very packed exam schedule..
This term I'm doing two years in one, so it's been real hectic
But somehow I managed! =)
And I have excellent grades too.. Praise God!

During this period I actually became a worry wart..
Not that I'm usually not..haha. But just especially.. =(
Well it's mostly about my proneness to develop lumps and cysts..
like everywhere.
In addition to being shocked with my first lumps 6 years ago..
and continually being shocked with more..
the dentist found a cyst beside my wisdom tooth..haha
oh and just last week the optometrist found a cyst at the corner of my eye.
not on the eye though...
Even though everyone's been telling me they're nothing to worry about
Being the worry wart i am
I can easily imagine scenes of me bloated up with lumps..*laughs*
And I'm suddenly afraid of dying..
from you-know-what
Mostly because I love my life now..cherish it and hate to see it destroyed
Anyway, I decided to quit being worrisome about it (as of now)
and hey I haven't learnt CBT for nothing yep..

*craving for fried oyster now*
Cin will know why..haha

My beloved Jacek proposed to me on beautiful Kapelusz mountain! 
And of course I agreed...
though it came as a complete surprise - When he told me to close my eyes...I thought he was going to put a bug in my hands..And when I felt some ring-y thing, I thought it's made of grass..lol!
And so...I put on the gorgeous ring (with sapphire and diamonds..not huge, haha.. but they mean a lot to me!)
And we celebrated on Kapelusz with splendid Porta wine
 now we're gonna start planning for the next step of our life together...
Overjoyed! Euphoric! Elated, Jubilant, Exuberant!!!
You get what I mean..SO HAPPY!!!!

 ~ I thank God for the wonderful love that has bound our hearts and lives together ~

p.s. pardon all the flowery and cutey stuffs all over my pics.. =P
it's joy overflowing..haha
more pics later =)

Pic taken right after proposal..I thought I looked terrible that day, but compared to silly Jacek who prefers not to smile in pics..I think I'm beautiful!! haha.. For those who don't know (yet) , there's this Polish culture thing about being 'natural' in photos.. and me posing with a smile is like totally superficial!! *smilessss*

My lovely ring! MY PWECIOUS!! haha
Princess-cut sapphire with 4 flush-set diamonds =)
My fingers somehow became smaller..10.5 and it's too big for my 4th finger..
Now we have to go and make it smaller..meantime wearing it on my mid finger so it doesn't drop off.. =P

I'm already dreaming about our beautiful wooden house! =)
We have a piece of land at Bieszczady already..but I guess we'll build a vacation house there.
Still it's time to start planting some trees and bushes!! *looking forward*

By the way, Jacek said he bought the ring 6 months ago!!
was just waiting for us to be at Bieszczady..=)
*so touched*

And so..Back in the blogosphere again. It's a good thing, actually. Reflects the increased amount of time I have, to sit down and write something personal. Well, not that I'm an exceptionally busy person. Just when there's a mountain-pile of schoolwork waiting for me to conquer, each time I get to rest, I choose to laze around and simultaneously worry bout my mountain-pile. It's funny how I've been blogging on and off, AND on and off. (And..). Blogging's great because like many others, thinking (incessantly) is one of my favorite activities, and to write bout oneself's thoughts keeps one in flow. Then I stopped because I have too many things to write about, I don't know where to start from- and then I'm petrified by thoughts of wanting to write so much I won't have time to finish..*laughs* The fact that procrastination's my worst nemesis didn't help as well.

-- AH! I just put toothpaste into my contact lens case!! Goodness, such mindlessness. Imagine the effort my brain devotes to thinking.Clumsiness is when Jing's thinking too hard, and Hibbo takes over..Hibbo's apparently very active nowadays..*lol* Perhaps it's the rum&coke I've been drinking tonight..--

So anyways, I'm back to blogging on my fleeting epiphanies again. =) This time it's gonna be a tad bit different though- more serious topics I suppose. One of my NewYear's resolution was to "Sharpen the Saw"..In all areas. Yea I know. Not exactly like the very SMART goals I've been learning to set for years- kinda like an overarching goal. Well, blogging's definitely one of my tools for sharpening my mental saw, and this time I hope to explore deeper issues (ambitious!). I've been trying to read more as well. Right now I'm reading Independent People by Halldor Laxness. The person who recommended it to me claimed Icelanders consider it a national treasure. Right now I'm only a few chapts into it, and will write a review once I'm through. =)